Epiphany

So, I was asked to apply for a leadership development program that is being piloted at my synagogue. I filled out the paperwork, waited, was accepted and tonight was the first class. It was fun. We had dinner, socialized, talked, and spent some time studying Jewish text with partners and discussed the text as a group. No one was on their cell phone or iPad (even me!) and everyone was present and I the moment.

I was processing the experience as I drove home and it dawned on me that this is the first time in at least three years (since Things 2-3 were born) that I've been able to carve out some time for myself. I spend my days at the mercy of work and my morning, nights, weekends, every moment in between at the mercy of family, friends, community responsibilities, etc. This was three hours where I could sit, listen, and do something for me. I'm not going to be tested. I don't have to write a report, draft a proposal, craft an email, have a "difficult" conversation or manage a relationship. Making the time to be there wasn't easy, but it was worth it.

Then I started thinking about this experience relative to my desire take care of my health. And I absolutely think there is a connection. I had to get to a place where I was ready. I needed to be in a physical, emotional and spiritual place where I was able to step back, take a deep breath and JUMP. When the girls were about 15 months someone asked me what I was
doing to take care of myself. The answer was easy: nothing. I was I survival mode. You ask any parent with three young kids (and a full-time job) and they'll tell you the same thing. Maybe I figured out how to survive. Or I got used to surviving. Regardless, something changed. It's all connected and it's all good.

OMG....just saw a commercial for a show called "Swamp People. W.T.F.?

All my posts lately seem very introspective and serious. So not be. Need to find the funny.